well another moody day
wake up late
thkx to my family making so much noise making me unable to sleep
as you see i sleep in the living room
pathetic right
whatever noise they make
i can hear it loud and clear
so i cant sleep at all
jus went i almost gone to lala land
a sudden loud noise (either toking or banging on smth)
woke me up again

so damn piss off in the morning everyday
you see, in school
i dun felt belong in there
last time i enjoy going to school bcos all my frend are there
but due to retainment
all the frend seem drifted away
seem like im alone there
felt like going go school is meaningless
and everytym i had to piss of jus to go to school
why should i go thru this pressure in the morning jus to go to somewhere i doesnt belong anymore
having the pressure of not wanting to be late
it a torture
and in school
i have to keep my calm due to some irritating human being
jus so noisy
calling ppl names, insulting ppl, bullying ppl
if i lose my cool
we will have to call 995 resasure that
so far i yet really punch somebody
and i nv once had the idea of it
and after a hard day of school
i have to go home and face the moody swing pro family
one minute happy another minutes angry
and i have to piss off from this miserable life
and i don't even get some privacy

i keep telling myself each day
what are friends, what is the definition for it
what do they serve in life
do i have that what they call 'friend' ?
what did i do to deserve all this irritation
i never scolded a person
i never hit a person
so why am i a bully's target
calling me name
and i when i try to defend myself
those irritating bastard alway say much more hurting word to me
i felt like i had enough

i dunwan to continue living like this
i have no where to vent my anger except myself
sadly to say
i have been crying myself to sleep these few nights
why do i deserve this
it all had to be blame by me
for retaining, so i loss my frend
for havent been defending myself the first tym they bully me
for everything in my life
i blame myself with the possible reason i can think of
i deserve everything...
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