( don't fucking ask questions, I hate people asking question about my post )


never thought i being so caring for each and everyone of my friends could lose a friend these days

well, caught in a super stupid heated conversation at msn.
not going to show the detail.

So we were quarreling, and ended off with a bad ending. Saying that my friend A (name don't wish to be shown) don't want to talk to me anymore.
Of course I cried, never thought I Edwin will cry right. Despite the fact that I seem cheerful everyday.
There are still ups and downs in my life, and I am a emotional freak.
Well this isn't the first time we had a fight, well suprise to say I cried everytime.
It is not like we're anything, just friend and I treated it as best friend.
Known each other for years now and I think I really adore the friendship we had.
I care about A just like I care about for the rest of my friends.
If it is anything for he/she to be happy, I'll do it well even thought how unwilling I am ( I tried to turn down sometimes )

Remembering that there is one time when we cried so hard talking about if we weren't friends in the future.
Yes that is the past, no point talking about it.
There are many times which I seriously can't endure A, but I didn't had any choice, who asked A is my best friend. Well I don't know what I am in his/her 's eyes.

So in the end why am I still crying? I never show this side of me in a while, I thought lived and enjoy my life well enough for me to forget this side of me.
I used to be alone, didn't dare to make any effort for anything.
But things slightly changes after I know them, well they are like separated now, each had their own life to depend, but I still treat them as best friends.
Whether they have doubt for the other, I always stay firm in the middle believing in them and not the words.
Sometimes thing had to go alittle bias but everything is fine now.

Hey, you're the first in my life someone who don't want to be friend with me.
Yes there are many people in my life whom we did not contact with one another and slowly our friendship dirfted,
yet you are the first to make the move.
Don't know why I am brooding over the past.

Hey, I am reminiscing about the fun time we had.
How I wish time could just reverse.

All these fights, why is it so?
You are too the first I had so much quarrel with other than my family.
I believe it is because I want you to change, I am quite dislike the way you are now. I believe you can change for the better.


So this is over ?
No regrets, anything?
If that is really the case, hope that you will enjoy to the max in your life with the new friends you made.
I will be happy for you.
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