I hate my life.
I know I have some really great friends out there, but they can't always be with me right. Something is personal which I have to deal it myself.
Everyone will have a group of friends to be with, it happen so now that I cant fit in
I look ridiculous trying, they are all the same batch of students so I understand its impossible for me.
While Sunny is the only same age as me but he is so mean to me.
I just cant communicate. I feel sulky, I'm a failure in life. I dont know what to do anymore
I can only see everyday passes meaninglessly, nothing done, a same everyday cycle. What should I do? I suck, I'm annoying? I'm irritating? I'm an eyesore? Someone nobody want to be with?
I envy others with their relationship with the friends, I just suck.
I feel like empty with my life, I hate this life. How much I tried to love myself, my life trying to be happy with what I am/have now, but what do I have? what am I?
I cant just be happy with nothing.
Why ? everyone has prejudice against me?
Ili always tell to me to happy with who I am now. But how can I be happy with all these unknown factor. Who am I in the eye of my friends, how am I for them. I know I'm just a lousy person, with no talent in anything. I look stupid, noob in playing games, average for studies and I'm the shortest around.
I am just so sad, I want to change myself but Ili keep telling me to be who I am. I just want to die, forget all these, keep sleeping in peace wont that be a good idea?
But I still want to live, I want to see myself make a different somewhere, I want to accomplish something big. I will have regret if I just end my life like that, now I dont know whether I can hold on any longer.
The grass always look greener on the other side
I've been looking on the positive side of life for some years now, but the negative things just keep adding in. For now, I'm just a worthless germs
Just a simple word like " how are you " can make my day, just a smile to me I can let me know you are my friend. Just a word like " lets go out " can make me feel wanted.
I just got nothing.
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