Behind the face of a thousand smiles.
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EDWIN TAN [ 26 SEPTEMBER 1990.
Becoming stronger than ever.
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since january2008
Biotragic
Friday, October 31, 2008 12:10 PM
Hello dear blog. Its been awefully long time since i last see you, how are you. Okay ironically being sacastic to a non-living existence. Sorry I neglected you, isolated you while me being infront of the computer most of the time watching ''Desperated Housewives" . Yes very desperate. O's my god. but I have been doing nothing but relax, but only up until the day before each examination I'll bring out my textbook, Ten Year Series, Workbook, Practice books what ever book there is on to my wide pathetic dinning table since my room is lack of a study table I have to put up with it, and lay them over so I can bring out my handy pen and use it rather for only my O's exams. No, its Biology test today and I have been watching the wrong show for the past days! I should be watching ''Grey's Anatomy'' or perhaps even ''Scrub'' but whats done is done. As the days towards the last examination grow shorter and shorter, I cant help but to sense a tinge of excitment. Mostly normal people might have that urge, the depress mood because how lousy they did for the exams, I know I did badly but I hardly feel any demoralisation, okay now that I mentioned it a little but that doesnt push me away from feeling joyous for holiday! Okay the partying mood shouldn't have slipped in, its too early for that.
Its 12:20 PM examination start in about 2hours time. Continue practising Ed cause you know you can do it.
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Math huge situation.
Thursday, October 23, 2008 7:11 PM
tomorrow will be that moment im afraid of first time of my life. Math O's.
Normally I won't have any problem with that, but since I came to secondary 5, it has been a huge subject problem for me. I understand the lesson, i know the formula but I dont know how to do ! its like the question is troubling me. Im so afraid.
Help me.
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Thought before sleeps
1:40 AM
For most people, we think a lot before we get to sleep every night. The same goes for me, I think a lot a few years ago up until I forget when I stop thinking. It just happen so I think about something yesterday night. Something like I will die someday. Yes, every living things will die someday which include human. That unknown fear came out of nowhere when I thought to myself death is like I no longer sense, no longer sight, no longer smell, no longer taste and no longer listen. This used to be the hot topic for most of my night alone, but everything I just try to resist it. But yesterday I tried another way to conquer that fear, by telling myself I will not regret my life, I will use the most of it, to be something I enjoy, to be something I want. Living my day with delights and special. Yes everybody have that thought. But how many had succeeded accomplishing it. That is why I can't screwed up my O's, well thats a start.
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Chemistry is half over.
Monday, October 20, 2008 4:44 PM
Paint is seriously a lousy tool (for me) i cannot get why some people can do fantasic manga work with it..
Chemistry is EASY. Okay maybe my self-esteem brought me too high.
Its do-able. I'm just afraid that the answer I thought to be right, is wrong.
Anyway V.I.C.T.O.R.Y ??
Not yet its just the first paper.
seriously work hard people.
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O's is not my thing.
12:48 AM
Studying , its one thing I wouldn't want to suffer in life. All that studying just to put you through a major exams which might not even be relevent in your life in the future, its a torture. I'm so dead
hes not dead. I am, this is my last minute revision which I hopefully able to memorise everything down by tomorrow 2:30pm which is when my ungodly Chemistry test begin.
Pray well for tomorrow every candidates, we got test to fry.
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Panic
Sunday, October 19, 2008 3:05 PM
Holy ***** Chemistry O's tomorrow.
FUCK IM SO AFRAID.
start studying . Heaven Sake
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Have fun studying E (trying to be like GossipGirl)
Friday, October 17, 2008 10:37 PM
i have been so stucked with gossipgirl.
I found the blog to gossipgirl, its so so weird like they are real and not fiction.
http://gossipgirl-blog.cwtv.com/
cool isn't it, now you got the latest update before even the episode is air !
My episode isn't going well. Chemistry test on monday and I havent even got my precipitation right. That whole chuck on anion/cation topic, i dont know how to form the equation. Thats not all theres a billion things yet to uncover. Im so dead.
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not so grand opening.
2:55 AM
First O's examination messed up. How shall I continue?
And I don't want to talk about it, answer should be diffusion I write osmosis. W.T.F
and the sparks for chemistry startle which mean I failed to mention the PURPLE FLAME PRODUCED !
This is retardation.
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Many photo for the day.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 1:54 AM
Photos. it seem awhile i had any, finally a little to type.
theres a lot more from teacher's camera. I will post them .
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Perfect World?
Monday, October 13, 2008 9:41 PM
- Back to Harsh Reality. After I wake up from my afternoon slumber, I found out I have no dinner at all. Lousy family afterall.
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Pain !
Sunday, October 12, 2008 11:48 AM
Dear Dairy,
I'm aching all over since yesterday morning. I played badminton te ady before, it was very intense. Jogging wasnt even as muscle aching as this. I felt that if I want to blog, I have to do it now when I stil have the mood because if its drag, I will think im too painful to blog.
And to my suprise my right arm is shaking.
Pictures arent recieving yet so I cant post a picture post yet.
Tell Huiyin to be quick!
I'm aching all over since yesterday morning. I played badminton te ady before, it was very intense. Jogging wasnt even as muscle aching as this. I felt that if I want to blog, I have to do it now when I stil have the mood because if its drag, I will think im too painful to blog.
And to my suprise my right arm is shaking.
Pictures arent recieving yet so I cant post a picture post yet.
Tell Huiyin to be quick!
Edwin
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Fun night out guys.
Friday, October 10, 2008 12:57 AM
Dear Dairy,
I LOVE TODAY. AND WE'LL ALL MISS IT.
Definitely its the greatest time I spent in this whole of 6 year in school with the classmate. Some of it is 6 years while some are 3years. but they are all great mate I've made. Its sad to say some of them didn't turn up, but its fun as ever!
We dine in at Sakura buffet, I eat like nobody's business stuffing food even when I'm full ! I just had to tell myself ''I'm hungry, I'm hungry'' and eat more just to maximise the profit.
I'm telling you, I ate ridiculously unknow amount small tub of ice-creams. I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat. I could have continued if they hadn't left.
oh right not forgeting, we took photos with our subject teacher as well.
whats next. right we went Ehub, where we actually wanted to watch ''House Bunny'' (weikang, sam, zaleha, jinyang, ili and I) but we didnt because its already late and it will be even late after the show. and we bumped back into our classmate there. Apparently they went to arcade and we followed.
I'm telling you I had the greatest time ever! its happy jolly welly okay I don't know what I'm saying right now. I don't think any words can fit my feeling for today. The best and the one I will always treasure memory is tonight.
Guys lets make another Class Outing. Call it ClassOutingII ((;
I LOVE TODAY. AND WE'LL ALL MISS IT.
Definitely its the greatest time I spent in this whole of 6 year in school with the classmate. Some of it is 6 years while some are 3years. but they are all great mate I've made. Its sad to say some of them didn't turn up, but its fun as ever!
We dine in at Sakura buffet, I eat like nobody's business stuffing food even when I'm full ! I just had to tell myself ''I'm hungry, I'm hungry'' and eat more just to maximise the profit.
I'm telling you, I ate ridiculously unknow amount small tub of ice-creams. I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat. I could have continued if they hadn't left.
oh right not forgeting, we took photos with our subject teacher as well.
whats next. right we went Ehub, where we actually wanted to watch ''House Bunny'' (weikang, sam, zaleha, jinyang, ili and I) but we didnt because its already late and it will be even late after the show. and we bumped back into our classmate there. Apparently they went to arcade and we followed.
I'm telling you I had the greatest time ever! its happy jolly welly okay I don't know what I'm saying right now. I don't think any words can fit my feeling for today. The best and the one I will always treasure memory is tonight.
Guys lets make another Class Outing. Call it ClassOutingII ((;
XOXO6969
Edwin.
Edwin.
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Yesterday and Today
Thursday, October 09, 2008 10:15 AM
Pizza at MsShaha's
Dear Dairy,
I figured I write my post, for nobody but myself. I didn't update anything about yesterday, to make things brief I went to Chemistry extra lesson and get my art topic from MsShaha. And followed by a delectable trip to Ruoyu's house where I got myself ice-cream ! To make someone like Joanne jealous, I MMS-ed a photo of Huiyin eating that chocolatechip ice-cream with a tasty expression. Apparently I failed as she was all busy on JaeJoong (DBSK) . I got home quite late yesterday, roughly around 8pm and I watched two episodes of GossipGirl. Chace Crawford is so handsome and Leighton Meester is beautiful, not forgetting the charming Blake Lively and the cute Penn Badgley. Call me materialistic, I just love those show of the rich and perhaps famous.
I figured I write my post, for nobody but myself. I didn't update anything about yesterday, to make things brief I went to Chemistry extra lesson and get my art topic from MsShaha. And followed by a delectable trip to Ruoyu's house where I got myself ice-cream ! To make someone like Joanne jealous, I MMS-ed a photo of Huiyin eating that chocolatechip ice-cream with a tasty expression. Apparently I failed as she was all busy on JaeJoong (DBSK) . I got home quite late yesterday, roughly around 8pm and I watched two episodes of GossipGirl. Chace Crawford is so handsome and Leighton Meester is beautiful, not forgetting the charming Blake Lively and the cute Penn Badgley. Call me materialistic, I just love those show of the rich and perhaps famous.
And as for today. I just got back from jogging, I recently felt healthier since I'm back in action (jogging) and doing all those stretches which suppose to help me grow tall but I'm devastated, I hope my perservance isn't for nothing.
Today is the day, the day where my class graduation buffet is happening at sakura. Friends like Weikang will be attending and I'm looking forward to it, since I've already eaten breakfast I'm trying to starve myself until 6.30pm this evening, you know so I can more. I haven't even get ready for that event, I haven't choose the thing to wear. It's gonna be something that can cover up my big belly, something awesome as for all the class photo taking. Its a hassle.
Okay like I said, I just got home from all that sweating under the burning sun. I smell like rotten pig, got to take a nice long shower.
Yours Truly,
Edwin
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Old, Young.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008 10:37 AM
Its another bright a sunny day ! not, i think its raining soon.
so much for a fresh new day.
I just got back from jogging at Tampines Stadium with Ruoyu.
Today we finally had what we wanted! Mcdonald's breakfast $2 meal !!!
but we think that the burger is too small to fill our appetite but we confined our lust anyway.
I bought MEIJI Chocolate Milk back home! gonna slowly savour every last drop of it ((; so happy, i wonder why, it could be because i have been drinking nothing but plain water for the past 2-3 days. Except for the fact I grew tired of it and made myself some Milo sometimes but most of it is plain water. Even my urine turned awfully transparent !! (TOO MUCH INFO)
I know its a healthier choice (drinking plain water) but you will be bored of it.
I couldnt help but wonder. Since previous Saturday I went out jogging, i returned home taking a bus, this time too and both days I saw quite a number of old folks around (except today because student are going back for schools) Do they all wake up so early in the morning ? like the old saying, the early bird get the worm. they are all aged and early, I can't even wake up early these days beside forcing myself awake for occasion. I think we youngster ought to learn to sleep early, sleep enough and wake up early.
you know times now is 10.45AM i got the whole let say more than 12hours to spent !
i can plan for relaxing, afternoon nap, eating, bathing, and most important studying.
okayokay. update again later if necessary.
Added At 9:46PM
guessed what, it really did rain today. my prediction was right.
Huiyin asked me to study, where it is? Tampines Inter (KFC) and i just came back from there!
oh well, i bet if i stayed at home, i won't learn anything, so i go with my enthusiasm on studying!
and so i camt back, eating another KFC zinger meal. why am I doing this? after all the hard effort on cutting down on fried/oily stuff.
but hey! i held back on buying OLD CHANG KEE while going back home.
its a great job indeed.
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Sleeping is not a crime, Sleeping and not Studying is.
Sunday, October 05, 2008 11:47 PM
Oh nonono! No no NO no no no no NO!!!!
what am I doing sleeping for the whole day!
things can get very reckless once normal school days are over, and FCUK ! i need to study for shit sake !
tell you what, i slept since yesterday's evening til now, wait i wasted the whole of 04oct midnight.
its time to turn the clock around and get back into practising for math and learning SCIENCES AND HUMANITIES !
HEY HEY who have their Secondary 3 Social Studies textbook ? I need it, whoever can borrow me please !?
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Day without school part 2, nono its Saturday today !
Saturday, October 04, 2008 11:00 AM
http://fr.youtube.com/experiencewii
click on that awesome link above to experience the wonder graphic effect!
thanks to teriyaki, as always, showing me this link to this video. my jaw dropped as the effect goes ! i wondered how they've done it !
this morning,
i went to jog, waking up at 6.40am to be exact, i bathe and get out of home by 7.05am. walked all the way to Tampines Stadium where i meet RuoYu for a morning jog!
I have been weird, because the day before, night I've already did my jogging and here I am doing the same in the morning, i must be desperate trying to loose some fats around the waist.
To our gluttony, we wanted to eat McDonald's breakfast meal at $2, and to our terror they dont sell it on weekends.
Moods down we went to the food court at Tampines inter and have our breakfast.
i came back home at 9.50am. still early .
I switched on the computer and having been staring at the monitor since.
SHOOOT!! study time now. ((;
and going out later.
i went to jog, waking up at 6.40am to be exact, i bathe and get out of home by 7.05am. walked all the way to Tampines Stadium where i meet RuoYu for a morning jog!
I have been weird, because the day before, night I've already did my jogging and here I am doing the same in the morning, i must be desperate trying to loose some fats around the waist.
To our gluttony, we wanted to eat McDonald's breakfast meal at $2, and to our terror they dont sell it on weekends.
Moods down we went to the food court at Tampines inter and have our breakfast.
i came back home at 9.50am. still early .
I switched on the computer and having been staring at the monitor since.
SHOOOT!! study time now. ((;
and going out later.
another video
HEY THERE KHALILAH!!
another fantastic song where 6 different songs put together.
thanks for Easley Alex showed me ! its awesome...
and i think im not going out .
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death is nearing number 1
12:38 AM
i guessed im doom, maybe its meant to be that way.
today i woke up, not the ususal, because i dont have school. it had ended. (thats what i thought anyway)
i slept til 12+ quinnsion called and told me that I had SS today. Shit! i totally forgot about it.
But anycase its already over. I got to meet Huiyin to pass her $8, helping WeiKang to pay for the class buffet, i brought my dog over to meet her at block 332 at 1.40pm
i got home, i studied Geography. I dont even sure whether im studying it or what, i just simply did minpmaps. I hope that if i keep doing mindmaps i will be able to memorise all the point of the topic and finally able to apply on O's.
yes i did rest, i watched ''Monster House'' . Cut my longgg nails. bathe and apply pimple creams.
its a boring day. i camwhore thinking i need brighter photo for Lynn to photoshop !
well here's just one shot of it.
i edited ''a little'' of cos.
LOL!! this is what B&V is all about.
we all photoshopped our photos into perfectly clean state leaving no error behind.
i do admit im sick and tired of it. i need to get out of this fate.
I think i really shouldnt be blogging right now.
i can blog but not at this hour. im meet Ruoyu for a morning jog at 7.30 which mean i had to wake up at 6.30AM
which mean im left with 6hours and 3min.
got to go. bye !
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The Last of school : Tomorrow
Wednesday, October 01, 2008 10:16 PM
About tomorrow, all the tears I had the smile I wear the laughter that echoed and the anger that followed is going to end. My 6 years in a neighbourhood secondary school and all the lovely, not forgeting the worse, experiences I had will just be a memory. Adding up, the friends I made and enjoyed at school with will just end.
Its somewhat sad to think about it. But before thinking about a new life in a new environment, lets just say that I had to start scoring for my subject.
Okay time to study.
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i got extra cash
2:12 AM
stuff happen today.
I got my $7 from SoonHiang. counted as part of the birthday present.
me on the other hand still owe him his present. i given him $6
we somehow make a deal to give each other +$1 more dollar for each birthday .
we stayed in the mac for sometime.
Anyway I wont post your photos here. its in my phone, and its even dangerous as being on my blog, cos everyone just take my phone and see pictures.
and then i got home.
Sgclub again. Play Isketch, but it isnt as fun.
Then Lynn came online thought it will be fun so i invited her to play.
And then we were in the Sgclub Chatroom chatting with people.
I let her photoshopped my photo, and she is good !
do you want to see the photo?
LOL i am madly laughing to myself
thinking i look hotter !
HAHAHA slimmer jaw and chin. its so hot!
by the way
i am reading a book call ''The Au Pairs'' and its super great
call me materialistic but i love it, it like life of the rich and famous.
its pretty cool. its rather a girly book but i dont care, it interest me.
its talking about 3 young lady.
Eliza Thompson, a pretty blonde whose family is bankrupt, that summer she went be an AuPairs to the hamptons trying to regain her rich and famous life back while at it.
Mara waters, a poor background, went to hamptons to work as an au pairs, a babysitter to earn money, $10000 for a summer break to pay her tuition fee and buy a car.
Jacerei Velasco, a south american who fallen in love with a american, one day her love just went missing and she went all the way to the hamptons to find him while working as an au pairs.
and thus the 3 of them met each other and friendship blooms. its very interesting !.
i just finish reading the second book for it. and im loving it !
my friend Ting told me there the 3rd and 4th book but its not in Singapore.
Damn im desperately wanting to read it.
im desperately trying to grow tall too.
I got my $7 from SoonHiang. counted as part of the birthday present.
me on the other hand still owe him his present. i given him $6
we somehow make a deal to give each other +$1 more dollar for each birthday .
we stayed in the mac for sometime.
Anyway I wont post your photos here. its in my phone, and its even dangerous as being on my blog, cos everyone just take my phone and see pictures.
and then i got home.
Sgclub again. Play Isketch, but it isnt as fun.
Then Lynn came online thought it will be fun so i invited her to play.
And then we were in the Sgclub Chatroom chatting with people.
I let her photoshopped my photo, and she is good !
do you want to see the photo?
LOL i am madly laughing to myself
thinking i look hotter !
HAHAHA slimmer jaw and chin. its so hot!
by the way
i am reading a book call ''The Au Pairs'' and its super great
call me materialistic but i love it, it like life of the rich and famous.
its pretty cool. its rather a girly book but i dont care, it interest me.
its talking about 3 young lady.
Eliza Thompson, a pretty blonde whose family is bankrupt, that summer she went be an AuPairs to the hamptons trying to regain her rich and famous life back while at it.
Mara waters, a poor background, went to hamptons to work as an au pairs, a babysitter to earn money, $10000 for a summer break to pay her tuition fee and buy a car.
Jacerei Velasco, a south american who fallen in love with a american, one day her love just went missing and she went all the way to the hamptons to find him while working as an au pairs.
and thus the 3 of them met each other and friendship blooms. its very interesting !.
i just finish reading the second book for it. and im loving it !
my friend Ting told me there the 3rd and 4th book but its not in Singapore.
Damn im desperately wanting to read it.
im desperately trying to grow tall too.
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