Behind the face of a thousand smiles.
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EDWIN TAN [ 26 SEPTEMBER 1990.
Becoming stronger than ever.
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since january2008
Height
Sunday, November 30, 2008 7:36 PM
Let me self-loathe and despair. Why am I short. People have been rubbing my wound. Lowering my ego, my self-esteem. Im ashame. I will do by any mean necessary to be tall, even to break my leg and let them heal to grow (to a large extent, i dont think i will do it)
Do you know whats the feeling, when you're walking along the street and every men in front is taller then you.
For short people, tall people stay out of our world! For short people, have you ever the feeling of the gently breeze just about 10 cetermeter above you? Have you ever think of the jean you bought needn't need to be alter and just about anything you wear can be so awesome fit. Not to rub in, TALL PEOPLE WHO WANT TO BE SHORT, SCREW YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU NEVER TRULY EXPERIENCE SHORT. I just wish to be taller by that 10cm, by 3inches. How very hard can that be? Seriously, its very hard for me.
Do you know whats the feeling, when you're walking along the street and every men in front is taller then you.
For short people, tall people stay out of our world! For short people, have you ever the feeling of the gently breeze just about 10 cetermeter above you? Have you ever think of the jean you bought needn't need to be alter and just about anything you wear can be so awesome fit. Not to rub in, TALL PEOPLE WHO WANT TO BE SHORT, SCREW YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU NEVER TRULY EXPERIENCE SHORT. I just wish to be taller by that 10cm, by 3inches. How very hard can that be? Seriously, its very hard for me.
ranting of an old dying man.
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Goodbye, Qiaoyan
Friday, November 28, 2008 11:59 PM
Qiaoyan over there is gone, going back to China and probably will never return to Singapore again. I was so darn wrong when I told Ili that the ever fishball will be on vacation to China since shes still schooling here but, turned out shes not. How very depressing !
So Nengli feeling pretty impatient, vexed and wild(dont know why I use that) about this issue contacted afew friends to the airport to see QiaoYan off.
probably my last photo with her. Shes 3 years older than me !!!!!
after saying goodbyes, we were left on the rampaged. Thinking that staying overnight at the airport will be a good ideas since no bus nor train work mid-night. But finally after lots of thoughts, we taxied home with Madeline solo since 5 person can't enter a cab.
Blog post for 27th November 2008.
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Problems.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 10:11 AM
I have viruses yesterday you probably didn't know. But thanks to my handy kit of WindowXp disc and some other discs I reformatted my desktop which I should have already done so some months ago, and now it's good as new. I recently downloaded Mozilla Firefox and to my surprise, I got the hang of it. I love FF its the best, better than Internet Explorer. But theres another thing, I still can't fix the problem which cause my desktop to automatic restart itself whenever I'm downloading something. I just has to pray hard whenever I did download something for my computer not to restart. Somebody help me check my problem?
Problems. I am left with nothing to watch now. Can't think of any new shows good for me to watch it. Somebody fix me with some shows already. I actually thought of Cold Case or CSI but, these show doesn't really have an actual story behind it, right? Am I wrong? Maybe back to Queer as Folk. I tried, The Tudors and I got so bored with it. I'm actually occupied myself plucking my beard than looking at the screen of my monitor. Well what to do now. Work?
Problems. I am left with nothing to watch now. Can't think of any new shows good for me to watch it. Somebody fix me with some shows already. I actually thought of Cold Case or CSI but, these show doesn't really have an actual story behind it, right? Am I wrong? Maybe back to Queer as Folk. I tried, The Tudors and I got so bored with it. I'm actually occupied myself plucking my beard than looking at the screen of my monitor. Well what to do now. Work?
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Government Secret. Chuck
Monday, November 24, 2008 3:02 AM
Plenty of free time wasted doing nothing, wasted on Grey's Anatomy and with that said I already watched the latest episode of it. So whats next? Chuck. Remembered Huiyin mentioned something about that show, Chuck back when we're still in 'our' art room. So I search online for it and I did.
I'll share the links for sure, its easy to remember, its http://0123456789xyz0123456789.blogspot.com .
I'm a very non-stingy person. see I shared it. But before you going onto clicking that link, using that link to watch Chuck has a deal, you got to have Mozilla FireFox . The deal is you got to download it if you don't have it. Its only viewable in FF. Yay for Firefox user.
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A moment more
Saturday, November 22, 2008 8:51 AM
I recently watched an episode of Grey's Anatomy, its greatly touching. I coincidentally bumped into a video in youtube related to that episode, which has this song in the final part of the video. It affect me for a few hours after watching that episode and that video too although i seen the episode already, so thus I'm changing me blog song to Mindy Smith One Moment More.
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One Moment More
8:40 AM
Hold me
Even though I know you're leaving
And show me
All the reasons you would stay
It's just enough to feel your breath on mine
To warm my soul and ease my mind
You've got to hold me and show me now
Give me
Just one part of you to cling to
And keep me
Everywhere you are
It's just enough to steal my heart and run
And fade out with the falling sun
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've got to hold me and keep me
Tell me that someday you'll be returning
And maybe
Maybe I'll believe
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really far
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really gone
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've got to hold me and maybe I'll believe
So hold me
Even though I know you're leaving
Even though I know you're leaving
And show me
All the reasons you would stay
It's just enough to feel your breath on mine
To warm my soul and ease my mind
You've got to hold me and show me now
Give me
Just one part of you to cling to
And keep me
Everywhere you are
It's just enough to steal my heart and run
And fade out with the falling sun
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've got to hold me and keep me
Tell me that someday you'll be returning
And maybe
Maybe I'll believe
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really far
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really gone
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've got to hold me and maybe I'll believe
So hold me
Even though I know you're leaving
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Devil May Cry
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 8:34 PM
It has been 8 days since my last paper. What have I done in the past few days? Seriously sleep wake eat and shit. And the cycle repeat itself for 8 continuous days. The highlight of the week is that I went over to WeiKang house 2 days ago playing Devil May Cry 4 on his PC. Very cool, I want to play again and since I saved my data, of cos I can. I just need to contact him again some day to go his house. Other than that I slacking at home, with nothing to do. People think im a busy person but seriously when everyone thinks that way, Im so damn free. Get what I mean? Still I am going to watch Grey's Anatomy. Mc Steamy Mc Dreamy LOL!
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I got past back by ILI
Tuesday, November 18, 2008 4:13 AM
1. The person who tag/pass me this : Ili; TALKINGDOOFUS
2. The relationship between him/her: Best girl friend!
3. Your 3 expression of him/her : JAKE, love LONGHAIRed, sit everywhere
2. The relationship between him/her: Best girl friend!
3. Your 3 expression of him/her : JAKE, love LONGHAIRed, sit everywhere
4. The most memorable he/she had done for you: everything is memorable too for her
5. The most memorable he/she had said to you: eddy.
6. If he/she become your lover, will you want?: no, cos i wont be the tall longhair caucasian she always dream of. Haha! She has too much love trouble with *** !
6. If he/she become your lover, will you want?: no, cos i wont be the tall longhair caucasian she always dream of. Haha! She has too much love trouble with *** !
7. If he/she become your lover, things that he/she need to improve: stop sitting everywhere you go, and the hunchback.
8. If he/she become your enemy, how?: no way, we might not talk much but we'll always
be friend
8. If he/she become your enemy, how?: no way, we might not talk much but we'll always
be friend
9. If he/she become your enemy, whats the reason?: she being too irritating and I snap . LOL
10. The most desired thing you wanna do with him/her: get your hair straighten !
11. Your overall impression of him/her: like the one which i drew in my omnia.
10. The most desired thing you wanna do with him/her: get your hair straighten !
11. Your overall impression of him/her: like the one which i drew in my omnia.
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2nd Class outing?
Sunday, November 16, 2008 5:36 AM
go to http://indulgements.blogspot.com/ for more information. I am here advertising, but of cos only to my classmates Who might they be, I'm guessing I can use this method to inform Ili, she read my blog i know she does so she will be inform LOL what confidence.
And by the way, I'm not so interesting in bowling, cause its bowling and I forget how to bowl.
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Holiday is not that all interesting
Saturday, November 15, 2008 11:43 PM
I'm on holiday, but the funny thing is I have nothing to do. I just waste my day away for the pass 4 days until YuanYong and RuoYu have already left Singapore. I need to do something, anything bring me out just to talk, bring me out to watch a movie, bring me out for shopping, bring me out for laughter. I just need to do some damn thing! Hmmmmm, the point is I don't want to waste this years holiday away.
So I said, wasting time away, wasting on Grey's Anatomy. I on season 3 episode 14 now, all the McDreamy. McSteamy or McVet LOL I got influenced, I want to be a surgeon which is incredibly insane for me, even the thought of cutting a human open gross me. But hey, all the proccedure, all that disgusting inside of the human body (wonder if its real) but I'm still there eating my breakfast (wait, I don't wake up in the morning now.) the lunch and the dinner perfectly well. I've been waking up just to eat now, am I growing fatter? But one thing I know, I am still fat. So I have to exercise. I have been doing stretches (yoga?). Definitely not yoga. I have been doing streteches cause it say I can grow taller (wonderfull!) but I don't seem to be a centermetre taller. I have to do a light routine first during before and after bed, meaning do before getting out of bed in the morning, and doing it before getting into bed in the night. Then moving on the a rougher set of stretches which has 15 type, 5 per days for about month. Yes I did that and they say it should add afew inches in my growth but what do you know, short as ever. I think its because I'm still under stress level during those period so nothing helps (hey got to be optimistic) so I move along to the highest level of the streteches which I have to do 10 kind of targeting different parts of body. I am do keep doing this, which is the last streteches until I grow, and I may stop whenever I want, which is definitely after 5 inches is added to me height (wheewww!) but will that be possible? I wish it will cause I will keep doing it. For a week, 2 week and a month.
So I tried to stay on track of time, getting in bed early today but, I failed.
Okay, whatever I do now, I have to sleep by latest 2AM. I know its so late but I slept at 6PM awhile ago ! its a good start.
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Taggs , always hated them
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 9:47 PM
1. The person who tag/pass me this:
- Ahgal, Mel
2. The relationship between him/her:
- friends
3. Your 3expression of him/her:
- im clueless LOL
4. The most memorable he/she had done for you:
-
5. The most memorable he/she had said to you:
- relink me. LOL
6. If he/she become your lover, will you want?:
- no
7. If he/she become your lover, things that he/she need to improve:
- nothing
8. If he/she become your enemy, how?:
- life goes on..
9. If he/she become your enemy, whats the reason?:
- I dont think in any reason we'll be enemy
10. The most desired thing you wanna do with him/her:
- nothing! im starting to hate these quizes
11. Your overall impression of him/her:
- shes enjoyable?
12. How do you think people around you feel for you?:
- im gay?
13. The character that I love bout myself:
- its alway sunny.
14. On the contrary, what bout the character I hate bout myself:
- I need to open up.
15. The most ideal person you wanna be:
- being 6 foot tall with a body and face of a swimsuit model LOL
16. For people that love, care & concern for you, say something to them:
- I know you love me, i thank for it.
17. Pass this quiz to 10 of you friends that you want to know how they think of you:
1) ili
2) nengli
3) brenda
4) lynnette
5) aden
6) lydia
7) yisi
8) ruoyu
9) teriyaki
10) yuefang
18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?:
- no idea
19. No.9 is male/female?:
- Female
20. If no.7 & 10 is together, will it be a good thing?:
- weird thing is i listed all female so its gonna be a lesbian if that ever happen.
21. What is no.2 studying bout?:
- beauty theraphy next year?
22. When is the last time you speak to no.3?:
- yesterday after O Level in McDonald
23. What kind of music band no.8 like?:
- she listen to The Beetles thats the kind of music she likes LOL
24. Does no.1 have any siblings?:
- 3 brothers
25. Will you woo no.3?:
- nope, b.f.f
26. How bout no.7?:
- never LOL
27. Is no.4 single?:
- perhaps. shes in australia how would i know
28. Whats no.5 surname?:
- same as mine.
29. Whats the hobby of no.10?:
- cam-whoring, although she always say im worse than her.
30. Does no.5 & 9 get along well?:
- well i do think they know each other.
31. Whr is no.2 studying at?:
- currently at East Spring Seconday, only until she recieve her N level, whether to stay or live, thats her choice.
32. Talk something casually bout no.1:
- I love her. friend love, love.
33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?:
- no. shes a friend i knew online since i was secondary 2 LOL
34. Whr does no.9 lives at?:
- ermmmmm...... in ubi?
35. What color does no.4 like?:
- green? no idea
36. Are no.1 & 5 good friends?:
- they dont know each other
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?:
- mortifying
38. Whats no.6 doing now?:
- working.
- Ahgal, Mel
2. The relationship between him/her:
- friends
3. Your 3expression of him/her:
- im clueless LOL
4. The most memorable he/she had done for you:
-
5. The most memorable he/she had said to you:
- relink me. LOL
6. If he/she become your lover, will you want?:
- no
7. If he/she become your lover, things that he/she need to improve:
- nothing
8. If he/she become your enemy, how?:
- life goes on..
9. If he/she become your enemy, whats the reason?:
- I dont think in any reason we'll be enemy
10. The most desired thing you wanna do with him/her:
- nothing! im starting to hate these quizes
11. Your overall impression of him/her:
- shes enjoyable?
12. How do you think people around you feel for you?:
- im gay?
13. The character that I love bout myself:
- its alway sunny.
14. On the contrary, what bout the character I hate bout myself:
- I need to open up.
15. The most ideal person you wanna be:
- being 6 foot tall with a body and face of a swimsuit model LOL
16. For people that love, care & concern for you, say something to them:
- I know you love me, i thank for it.
17. Pass this quiz to 10 of you friends that you want to know how they think of you:
1) ili
2) nengli
3) brenda
4) lynnette
5) aden
6) lydia
7) yisi
8) ruoyu
9) teriyaki
10) yuefang
18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?:
- no idea
19. No.9 is male/female?:
- Female
20. If no.7 & 10 is together, will it be a good thing?:
- weird thing is i listed all female so its gonna be a lesbian if that ever happen.
21. What is no.2 studying bout?:
- beauty theraphy next year?
22. When is the last time you speak to no.3?:
- yesterday after O Level in McDonald
23. What kind of music band no.8 like?:
- she listen to The Beetles thats the kind of music she likes LOL
24. Does no.1 have any siblings?:
- 3 brothers
25. Will you woo no.3?:
- nope, b.f.f
26. How bout no.7?:
- never LOL
27. Is no.4 single?:
- perhaps. shes in australia how would i know
28. Whats no.5 surname?:
- same as mine.
29. Whats the hobby of no.10?:
- cam-whoring, although she always say im worse than her.
30. Does no.5 & 9 get along well?:
- well i do think they know each other.
31. Whr is no.2 studying at?:
- currently at East Spring Seconday, only until she recieve her N level, whether to stay or live, thats her choice.
32. Talk something casually bout no.1:
- I love her. friend love, love.
33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?:
- no. shes a friend i knew online since i was secondary 2 LOL
34. Whr does no.9 lives at?:
- ermmmmm...... in ubi?
35. What color does no.4 like?:
- green? no idea
36. Are no.1 & 5 good friends?:
- they dont know each other
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?:
- mortifying
38. Whats no.6 doing now?:
- working.
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its over
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 11:55 PM
its over , whats over is my GCE O Level Examination is over and that kind of come along with two different meaning. Yes its finally over, after like 2 week of stress and frustration? Nah I don't think I have any just that I ate a lot and study too little and that the other meaning its over. Im doom. I should have study alittle more shouldnt I? The damaged couldnt be reverse now and Im kind of having second thoughts about my future. But what the heck, I finally get my big holiday which include intensive exercising soon as Im growing incredibly fat during my exams and having a job so I can get myself a PlayStationIII and perhaps Nintendo Wii and stuffs that I want. Im dying to play games here.
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Continued...
Sunday, November 09, 2008 2:52 PM
Once I met up with Ting, we went to Bali Lane and eat.
Shes a vegetarian so whatever she order definitely isnt appealing to me, but since she cant finish eating that large piece of bread with cheese with lettuce with tomato, I finish it up for her (theres 2 part for the whole food)
I am very ugly on that day, every picture turned out ridiculously stupid only the selected few are alright. I am getting fat, I am so fat that when god say let there be light, I have to move .
So afterward we went to Alice 88th Alice's shop, I havent go there for like a year LOL and god she remember me, of cos with an idiotic nickname that Ting had enforce on me, Hard Gay. That Razor Ramen guy in Japan.
Later we waste time outside her shop, since she sort of hint that the shop is squeezy.
We left there at 6pm++ with Ting going for work and I going back home and accidentally fell asleep
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To be continue
Saturday, November 08, 2008 6:56 PM
Not like i stop blogging . I havent got the time to sit down and blog. I went out with Jianting . Hime. Aden yesterday. yeah all that possible name of hers. let just call her Ting .......
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My self-declared holiday....
Wednesday, November 05, 2008 11:58 PM
My self-declared holiday start today. Right after that mother tongue paper which is Chinese I'm counted as a free man, another 6 more days to my Science MCQ and officially holiday for me. What should I do , dye my hair? go for a sun-tan, or straight away get a job? But most importantly, I having been doing my stretches for about 2 weeks ! its time to get cracking, again. I'm persistant to grow an inch or two by next month ! holy mother i swear that if i dont grow taller *beep* *beep* *beep* *beep* . Seem like what I say is block by some noise, too bad you wont get to hear it .
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good lord, my laptop is slow!
Tuesday, November 04, 2008 11:13 PM
God how slow can my laptop be! I had to wait for a hour before I am able to load into blogger this is so stupid. okay forget it, I was thinking about changing my blog song today but I gave up on that idea because my laptop just stink, it took me so long yet it havent even loaded into the page of imeem to upload my darn song. In anycase gratefully photos are up but sadly i only uploaded three.
so practically today is a late morning, or should i say evening. got up at 3pm and did nothing until now, apart from nothing my eyes are the one busy with episode of Grey's Anatomy because I have watched Desperate Housewives up to their latest series, season5 episode6 and now im stuck so I decide to watch Grey's Anatomy. Heroes and GossipGirls are just coming in so slowly, i just have to wait. Right also I read D.gray-Men, Bleach and One Piece manga today.
Chinese tomorrow man, hope i rock it !!
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Spotted.
Monday, November 03, 2008 7:27 PM
Spotted inside ShengShiong at bedok. Buying tibits snacks biscuit and chocolate back home.
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Something about me yesterday
Sunday, November 02, 2008 3:07 PM
I was drunk, and I had a bike accident
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