since january2008

I wasn't all happy happy today actually. I felt dead and soul-less.
Problems and issues just had to get into me. The devil is just attacking me from all sides. Sadly but truly I cried so hard yesterday evening til midnight just around it struck 12, I when to sleep murmuring happy birthday song to myself..
I woke up in the morning and feeling the same lousiness from yesterday. Don't know what should I do. What to do on my birthday. Feeling its the same every year, nothing has change. In the end, Dom told me to go for WAD Service. And I did. I didn't eat breakfast, I didn't eat lunch. I reached there at 1:40pm. Feeling lost that Im there. Its written all around my face lah that I have issues, Dom knew he talked to me, I didn't. Went for service and after it end at 5+ Lamzy suddenly said that theres Cell meeting and tell me to come along. I thought weird, and Dom told me to go. And as I stepped out of the room. Everyone was there and Winston had this piece of cake and they sang me Happy Birthday song together. To my memory, when is the last time I heard a Happy Birthday song sang by a group of people to me? I am truly touched. Because JL is sick and he held all the money they couldn't afford a bigger cake, I'm just sad that they couldn't enjoy the cake together. Thanks everyone.
Afterwards we had Dinner. And I went to help out with the Children Church decoration.
I'm very stunned and suprise that at the end of today, I have not 1 not 2 but 4 times of Happy Birthday song sang for me. Hahaha! So embarassing, but its good.