Thinking about it. Ili and I had a lot of fight and misunderstanding. But thats what make us where we are now. I really misses those times. In the art room, at esplanade, during recess. Just like as everything is a past, I lost myself too. Now I don't know how to be myself, with all the new people whom I look at most days. To them, they still have their part of their past. The present is just additional. To me, I got no past and what I hope for is only the present. I may sound emo, depressed. Hey its me. Its has always been me. I used to cover up everything. Live life optimistically. Live with a smile, hope everything will be better for me. But it is starting to wear down. I feel like how I feel when I was sec 1. Empty, foreign, lost, uneasiness, like no one understand. I thought of giving up. But I keep telling myself " Don't give up " I even wrote in on my little whiteboard "Just Don't Give Up!" to remind me that I have to fight this fight. But I feel like I can't do it anymore. I really want someone to tell me these word, someone who care and is close. Someone to tell this to my ear. I want people, I want friends, I want them to love me for who I am. But who am I? In all these problems, I am too constantly searching for myself.


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Yes. Nobody can be there when you're on your down moment.

Friend forever kay Dominic? Love you! :)

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guess im asking too much. nobody can be there for you at your down moment.
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rmb the other time i post 1 really cannot make it image for the focal point. We all have to redo it. and I at least a little decent work. haha.
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Damn, this is the second I almost let out my tears in front of Dom! Man I hate myself for being so weak.
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Went out to find Dom to do our work today. Travelled to Bishan which I don't really mind traveling to find my friend. We stayed around coffee bean and luckily we weren't chased away from not consuming any coffee bean's stuff. I kinda didn't really do my actual stuff while I'm there, I'm suppose to be painting. I was still designing my work to paint and Dom advice me to draw 1 out on the center then later we go photocopy it like what he gonna do. We had lots of conversation and I'm pretty glad he shared some of his personal stuff with me. He finished his Comm Skill work there and than we went to eat dinner in the night around 8+pm hoping the photocopying shop will still be open. But then, all hope gone down as all the shop closed. Way early man, my area 9+pm also havent close. Haha. Nevermind lor, so I went back home which is currently trying to finish up my work.
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Today was great.
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I wore white today. Not just me, everyone else too! But Dom a bit spoiler, he wore pink but he brought a white sweater. But for the whole day he was pink. The only pink in the group. So striking like he is the leader of the group like that.
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Today was fun. DMS had it first fun activity! We all get together as a group, group 2 duhh, go around campus to find bits of the puzzle for the activity. Afterward some of us got stuck with play games, and then we go home. It was a good day in a long time. EVEN THOUGH I missed my macdonald breakfast because Dom was late, haha I dont blame him, we're all tired and I made him crawled out of bed today to come just for breakfast. Next time bah, and next time I will ask Alvin along too. Hahaha, we all need to bond. ;)

Anyway. 1 of tomorrow's assignment to hang in is self portrait, which I have done. 
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I am just so tired today.
I took the tendency to sleep at 12+am yesterday to recharge so I can continue my work but I didnt wake up to do. Damn.
And just now while heading back home. I over ride my stop, I took extra 3 more stop, how stupid can I get.
Just so tired these days.
But its just the start, thing are just getting better.
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Why can't anyone understand. I'm trying my best at the moment.
Its hard to stay happy and content when you're not. But I'm trying!

And it seem my coughing don't seem to go away.
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I need to be said in the face.

Tell me its a piece of crap!



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HI GUYS!

I may seem to MIA for awhile but I'm not dead yet.
I was sick. down with fever and all. But! thats not gonna pull me down. I will be strong! hahaha. Aside that, homework not done.

GOD!!
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How Logical Are You?
Poor
You scored between 0 - 2 correct answers. Do you even understand what I'm saying?

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I have had fever today. It was 38.1 degree previously and it jump to 39.1 this morning. I thought of staying at home but i have Felicia and Shili admin card with me. No choice at least attend lecture then pass them back the admin card and went home. skip tutorial. I thought my fever will go down a little before I go school but it increases to 39.3. Damn! Suffering really pain headache, flu. cough, probably body ache too. Die ah! I need salonpas.
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06th july was rather not the type of day I look on for. Because of the lack of 30 images, ShiLi and I went to try and take somemore. Felicia followed us. I asked Dom and Alvin but apparently they got friends who can teach them photography. So I went with the girls. But I didn't really capture enough photo to call it a day, Felicia got really sleepy and Shi Li felt like going home to finish up the rest of her homework. So its okay I thought to myself, after I get my medicine from that clinic near Kovan Mrt, I will try to snap somemore on my own. I was feeling rather lonely, but they feel adjusted a little when I saw Terence, from Dom and Alvin's church. They were doing their church stuff and it seem to be related to Romp. Terence saw that I was alone so he was very kind to say that he will accompany me for my photo taking after his end his stuff. So I went to get my Facial Wash from Dr. Chan at Kovan mrt there. And after while, he really accompanied me to take photos, man of his words, though I felt a little sense of hurried along the way, but I'm glad he accompanied me. Thank :)

And that was today.

Standing firm, holding the ground steady I tell myself, "Don't give up"

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Do I really have no one when I need someone?
Maybe someone is right, friend are not important so its better to be without any? So then learn to depend on oneself?

I find it really sad.
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Today was suppose to be the day I take 30 image of the city I live in. But thank ah rain, thank for everything. Couldn't get 30 images, only 10+ .
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I got sunburnt. My nose is majorly red and warm and it hurt.



I've been dropping uncountable amount of hairs lately. (from my head duh). So I really couldn't stand it anymore I'm changing my shampoo to Dove, it work the last time I hope it does again. This time without conditional.
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Major GG. I am not suppose to overslept!
Now my comm skill homework is deadddddddd!!
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Today was BORED! Even though I still have a stack-full of assignments (exaggerating) I am lazy to start working on them. I just chionged finish 2 work I need some break first. Comm Skill, tonight lah!

Ignore my many faces, I know I'm pretty zilian. If only someone take me out. You won't have to suffer looking at my face this many times.

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LOL I just feel like editing this post, that photo the more i look the gayer I felt. LOL
anyway this video is just freshly uploaded!

Its Airto. The one I saw it in Ili's blog few days ago. He is just awesome. But anyway guys, MJ's death, I feel nothing at all. HAH!
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